I've been lying to myself, and this week I allowed myself to become present to how much we all lie to ourselves to avoid the discomfort of living out of alignment with our deepest truth.
I spoke last time about how brutal transformation is. I wonder how many of us truly aspire to shedding the layers of an identity we’re familiar with, in order to embrace a new one that feels uncertain? Not many, I’m sure of it.
So many of us choose to be the ostrich, burying our head in the sand to avoid the truth that our current life is simply a mirror for the minimum standard we’ve accepted for ourselves.
Whether that’s in work, relationships, health or our way of being, it’s easier to pretend life is happening to us rather than for us. We rarely get present to the reality that we are responsible for the minimum standard we allow in our lives. Each of us holds the agency to choose a new path, one that raises our standard, if we’re willing to let go of what’s familiar but no longer serving the person we’re becoming.
Most won’t. I say that with confidence, because I see it every day in the work I do with clients. And I see the same resistance in myself when I’m elevating my minimum floor.
This week I got present to the fact that I’m resisting my new standard. I got present to the fact that I’m holding myself back from the future I want to create. I got present to the fact that I’m waiting for some magical moment when the conditions are perfect and it feels safe to make the change.
The truth is, my resistance to letting go of the part of me that feels safe and familiar is still strong. I’m avoiding the hard decisions, because saying yes to the future I want also means facing the fear of failing on the path towards it.
My rational brain says, “You don’t fail, you just learn.” My emotional brain whispers, “But isn’t life good enough as it is? Why risk changing anything?”
The truth is I know I have to change things up, because I dream about a different future. I dream about a life where every part of it feels magical. I dream about my soul lighting up through the way I experience each day. I feel joy in my heart as I wake each morning with anticipation to live and create in alignment with my dreams.
In a world where fear is the currency we most often exchange, I want to keep choosing trust as mine.
I’ve already filtered out so much of the noise around me so I can tune into my own signal. The signal that reminds me of the frequency I want to stay aligned with.
It’s the frequency where others connect not because of performance, but because they feel resonance with the journey. They feel the depth of curiosity and compassion for life. They sense the spark of their own possibility, one that ignites their path to becoming who they came here to be.
I know my life is not a performance for others. And I know that if I chase the applause of others, I’ll never have the courage to honour who I truly am.
My words carry a frequency. They’ll only resonate if you're tuned into the same station. Like a radio signal, if you're not on the same frequency, all you'll hear is static. That’s okay. Your frequency is out there too. You just need to allow yourself to tune in.
Before the fourth month of this powerful year comes to a close, I need to show myself who I came here to be. I'm not declaring externally what I’ll be doing in advance (although in some ways, I already have). But I will honour my future self by showing you through my actions.
Because I can see it so clearly now, the book I need to write next is the one I need to live first.
The mantra I’m holding close is:
“You are subject no.1. Follow the path to becoming who you came here to be.”
By the end of Quarter 2 and the end of the Australian financial year, I know I’ll meet a version of myself I’ve never known before. I’m excited. I’m ready to move toward her. I’m ready to wrap her in the biggest hug and thank her for holding the frequency I needed to find her.
We have ten days until the end of April.
Will you write off your month because you're behind where you thought you should be by now?
Will you give up because the goal you want to achieve still feels impossible?
Will you ignore the signal your heart is gently urging you to follow?
Or will you take just one small step in the direction of your dreams?
If you did that for the next ten days, what could ten steps of progress look like for you?
It’s my hope that by the end of this month, you’ll see the output of my ten steps. Small but steady. Gentle yet powerful. Scary, and yet reassuringly safe. Not a performance for others, but a journey of pure presence with myself.
I’m with you, my friend. Let’s do this.
Keep going and keep growing.
Love Glin x
P.S. Three wins from my week:
- Asking for a mirror. We can't always see ourselves clearly—we all have blind spots. This week I asked John what he was seeing, and he named my resistance. I rejected it at first, not wanting to accept the reflection he was showing me. But I’m grateful I moved past my own ego and saw how that resistance was holding me back. I’m also grateful that John is a Projector, in Human Design speak, and that I can trust what he sees—because he often sees before I do.
- Glin & Tonic design draft received. I got the first draft of my new design concepts. While they won’t be the final versions, I felt deeply present to how my new brand identity is supporting the version of me I’m stepping into. It’s a mirror too, in its own way, for the energetic up-levelling I’m walking toward.
- Connecting with my tribe. The more I embrace my own frequency, the more I see it reflected in the people I’m getting to work with. This week my cup was filled with rich, soul-stirring conversations with others who hold equally powerful visions for the change they want to see in the world. I’m getting to be part of future-creating dialogues, where we’re sparking off each other’s energy and dreaming aloud the possibilities that want to be born.
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